Suddenly I had to shed some tears today. As already mentioned today the circle is complete rounding south of Sweden with the boat. I still have more than one week left to get the boat back to its home harbor Bullandö. But from here i know the area and from Saturday on I have experienced sailors with me on the boat, additionally Martin my boyfriend comes on Sunday.
So why shedding tears?
This journey has brought me to my limits a few times, has had me stressed and even sleepless a few times, even on the brink of giving up completely.
But all the feers I have had, all challenges, feeling there is no strength left, I have overcome and am here now. I'm so grateful I have managed and learned a lot about myself.
I will complete something that I set out to do. But I couldn't have done it without the help of others. What I have learned is that I don't need to feel alone even if the responsibility for the boat, safety and course is still mine, I can involve who ever has been part of my crew and ask for opinions, help or just share what I'm struggling with.
Writing this I realize that this has been really hard for me to do, but when I started doing it it's been the source that has given me strength to carry on.
Another thing is going with the flow, similar to going with the weather, because there is no power to change it, so do the best of it and enjoy your moments.
Another thing I learned is, if numerous things dependent upon each other go wrong, don't spend all your brains on solving all possible options and get sleepless nights. Think it through alright, but concentrate on solving the first thing and afterwards the next. Not all at once!